Shouldn’t it now be the time the universe come with that perfect man I want now?
Like I need him…no wait I want him to be tall chocolate brown, like those NBA players and with a walk of the overly confident Rappers.
Life is like this?
I have been waiting but while I was waiting I decided to embark the journey of finding what I want instead of being content of what the universe knew what I needed. He was perfect and nowhere near to what I pictured and lied to myself what I needed. His ability to love me for who I am, erased that silly rule that I made of “He will be perfect if he has big sexy muscles”.
His ability to live life to the fill no matter what inspired me to deal with my own issues and allowed me the chance to erase the pain that my past made me to disbelieve and lose hope in love. No matter how hard I fought my feelings and my inner voice of “he’s the one and he is a good man” he waited. Emotional intimacy is thee most beautiful gift that any man can give his woman. Being connected like that before sexual intimacy is just precious and amazing and he gave me that. For the first in my life I became speechless and shamelessly in love with what God blessed me with, my boyfriend and he’s heart. I prayed for him as much as I prayed for myself.
I have my family and God in my heart, the only space I got left is for the man that God has designed for me and only me and you know what? He is that man. My love story wasn’t one any movies could come near nor understand. It was simple and as beautiful as the love story between a man and a woman. My Bible scripture for him which is written across my heart is 1 Corinthians 13:13, “So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love”.
My heart inter locks within his and my soul transcends which connects so beautiful with the rhythm of how both of our hearts beats for each other. Our hearts don’t beat together, his sometimes beats first to lead and remind of how much of a great man he is and mine gives him that space and allows him to be that man what he wants to be and a man I truly love for myself. I am his woman and I am the one that will give him strength when he feels that he’s too weak to carry on.
Second guessing him would be like doubting that there is a God that loves me. When the time is right, our marriage will begin with our Father God and should he feel that we are not meant to be, I trust and hope we will go our separate ways with our hearts content.
I am in love and I am loved.
