Whatever

I recently saw a tweet on twitter said some of the greater things in life are unseen that’s why you close your eyes when you kiss. Whatever dude! I mean like get real that is not true…well for me its not. Kissing the first time was great but as time went on it seemed as if I was counting the days until this activity would end. Yes of course I get the feeling of excitement and thinking that this is the night where I break my virginity but than reality spoils and rescues me. Well, we all have them (even us guys too). The problem here is when certain women allow their emotions to guideall of their actions and when things go south, they have to work harder to undo the damage. When emotions guide ALL your actions, there’s mostly always more to everything as far as you’re concerned. If he calls more often than he does on one particular day, it maybe means he’s done something wrong. If he asks too many questions about one of your friends, he probably has issues with her or some hidden agenda. The date was the 10th of December year 2010 time (no you don’t have to know all the details about that). He logged on Mxit and my heart jumped because truth to be told I never got over him and funny enough and scary at the same time I never will. He told me he wants another chance to try again in our relationship and suddenly instead of being happy I felt fear.

Fear of disappointment and love not from him though, from me. In the past I got so hurt and messed up in past relationship that by my own I developed an emotion of “I don’t care anymore”. To elaborate for

you this means that I dated guys but will end things within two months because I didn’t want things to go

any further. Secondly this emotion also made me feel ok and kind of great to cheat because at the end I wasn’t in this till the end in fact I wasn’t in it for the beginning. Brave I know but inside I was dying and yearning for true love. You see when you are single with no one there to comfort you romantically; you tend to see a lot of couples publicly displaying affection and love. I wanted to kill every single couple that I saw because they indirectly reminded me of what I am missing so dearly. I missed it yes but I was not even going to embark on that journey of love, not at all. I know people say true love has its ups and downs but when it hits you it’s hard to ignore it. WHATEVER!! I stopped being a fan of Cinderella stories long before I could say “wow that’s so sweet”. I am not going to wait or hope ad pray that my so called soul mate will come because love is not for everyone, least of all me.

Nothing will make you feel better and more in love than reuniting after a breakup, it really

does add spice and sparkle to a relationship so they.....